It was with great sadness today that I learned of the death of an old friend who finally succumbed to his malignant brain tumour. I hadn’t seen Mark for many years but he has always been in my thoughts and was my greatest love. I received the message whilst sitting with Mum who was not in a very good mood today! I told her of his passing but she had no recollection of him and when she learned how old he was she said how sad she was to hear the news. I shed a few tears which she did not notice.
Mum complained of feeling very tired and wanting to go to sleep. She also complained of a severe headache which appeared to vanish after a few minutes! She had numerous discussions with herself and others about various subjects including men wearing pink shirts, how much she was missed, the fact that she felt very poorly and that she wanted to get home but didn’t know how. When I tried to explain that she was already home she told me in no uncertain terms not to make up dreadful lies and what an idiot I must be! I told her that she was in a bit of a bad mood and she replied ‘ I am in a filthy mood and I hate everyone!’
She refused to eat any of the delicious risotto because it ‘tasted so horrible’ but did manage to ingest a moderate amount of Cadburys dairy milk chocolate and drink a glass of port. ‘ Port is my favourite drink ‘ she declared. ‘ I thought your favourite was whisky?’ ‘ well I think port tastes better!’ she declared. She laughed when I suggested that the port and chocolate should put her in a better mood. She managed to eat a large bowl of trifle which is one of her favourite desserts.
We sat and watched TV and she commented on the roses and had a chat to her friend about how lovely all her roses were. I had brought her some daffodils and she said ‘but it is a bit too early for daffodils to be out. They normally arrive in March!’ I was pretty amazed by this as she normally has no idea what month it is.
I sat and sewed a teddy bears leg. ‘ Is that a slipper for your father?’ she enquired ‘ because it does look a little small!’. I told her what it was and told her that I made teddy bears. She said that she didn’t know that! I showed her a photo of my newest bears which I had made this week.
I played her a recording of my latest piano playing which she described as ‘ very impressive!’
Most of her conversation today was fairly muddled and addressed to her imaginary friends. I am not sure how much she can now hear properly or understand. She insists that she can hear but then asks me to repeat most things which could be a comprehension issue rather than hearing. I asked her if she thought she might benefit from a hearing aid but she felt it was me who needed one!
I sat with her for nearly 4 hours before deciding that it was time to make the long journey home. She always asks me where I am going and where home is. I told her I lived in Northampton to which she replied and I shall be on my way home soon to Bromsgrove.
I kissed her goodbye and told her I loved her. ‘I love you too ‘ she replied.